I.I.T.E.O.O.S

I heard the sound, and yes, u are shouting my name
I opened the door
I doesn't said even a word and went to upstairs
You are in downstairs
Vaguely, I heard some sound
I though u .......
After that it does not happen exactly what do I wish to
I felt stupid to thinking all this kind of things.

不开心=(

来说说我最近不开心的事吧

上星期考试、我以为我可以做得很好

但往往事与愿违

这个考试又被我搞砸了

是我不够努力吗？还是不管我怎么努力都一样？

真的很恨自己、比别人笨的自己

别人踏一步，我却要走好几步才追的上


我很努力的想做的更好、可是嘴上说说实际上却没有

我就是这个老样子

一点点就让我想很多很多、然后让自己不安心才甘愿

学业也好、爱情也好

我老是这样！

几时才能改我这个老毛病啊

连续失眠了几天

睡觉时脑子一直在转、一直想一些有的没的

压力开始冲着我来了

第二件不开心的事是---碰巧二哥结婚撞到我的考试

心情很复杂、很讨厌=((

第一次家里办喜事而我要忙着考试

真的很不开心！！！=((

唉！老天就是那么残忍

为什么？！=(

不过没关系、人都是这样熬出来的

把玩乐的时间减半能换来理想的成绩的话

我愿意

告诉自己熬过就好了、辛苦点没关系

我要坚强

我不会让任何人瞧不起、我要我家人为我而骄傲

为了将来~~~~

拼了吧><

My 21th Birthday

终于二十一岁的生日就这样度过啦，也证明我又老了一岁了=(

这个生日我很幸福，因为有我家人，爱人，朋友都陪在我身边陪我度过这重要的日子

这足以能够温暖我的小心窝了❤

我最爱的妈咪❤

和我最亲的阿姨❤

我很爱很爱的阿嫲❤他为了我多累多迟也帮我庆生，真的好爱她=P

首先我要谢谢我的他，为了我你绞尽脑经只为让我有个难忘的生日

为了让我开心，你总是想把最好的都给我，就算花完你零用钱也在所不惜

你总是想给我最特别的

原本你想偷偷去买baskin robin蛋糕给我惊喜的

结果还是被我撒娇的功力哄你说出来了、哈哈

还有你从外国订回来的礼物

你为我第一次下厨、为我精心准备的生日餐

看你为我去买材料被雨淋、挨着伤口的痛真的好心疼

我很开心、也很感动你为我做的一切

我都感受到了宝贝

不要觉得自己做得不够好、爱情不是一一地在作比较

你做的每件事都是最特别、和无可取代的知道吗肥仔？=D

你说过的我的每个生日都要你陪我一起度过、你的也一样

不准反悔哦臭男人=P

再来句肉麻的话、我平时不常说给你听的

‘老公我爱你’ =D

我的臭男人=P

Orange,

真的起初没想到能和你熟到这个地步

和你一起做event helper、认识新朋友、一起去玩、一起八卦、互相照顾对方、互相鼓励对方

一起作弄人（我们的专长XD）

我们可以那么融合都是因为我们都有相同的性格

顽皮、爱玩、爱打扮、爱捏人 哇哈哈>.<

希望我们的姐妹情能够维持到我们老掉牙那一天咯

因为我还想跟你打架

还想跟你38 下去啊XD

还有难得找到你的真命天子、要幸福丫傻婆❤

JACKY,

我的coursemate+姐妹 你好 XD

在nani group里面你扮演着很重要的角色

可以说你是这里面的leader

每当我们nani group 任何一个人生日你都一手包办想idea之内的东西

也是万万没想到能和你好到无话不说的地步啊

和你一起上课真的很有趣

无聊时一起八卦、讲笑话、取笑人、一起打game

一起面对考试，压力，紧张，一起见advisor、解决问题、一起讨论功课、一起翘课=.=

和你相处的时间真的不少啊

这让我成了一种习惯tim，上课没了你真的有点不自在的说（我知道你在爽着=.=）

p/s 你wechat那篇长气的东西真的很感动=D

feiven,

thor sui ga 一开始不认识你觉得你是个noob noob 的人

又不说话、害羞害羞酱

哪里知道和你一熟

我一秒要你不讲话都不可以=.=

还有踩人的功力是非一般的强啊-.-

不过知道你没恶意的啦

再过一年我们就要毕业了

有点不舍得的说

要好好rock这一年哦 XD

Panda,

也是从foudation认识你到现在

一开始认识你发觉你比我还内向、比我还害羞

所以你都不太跟我们去做event helper

直到慢慢我们怂恿你你才慢慢变的外向

到现在叽喳的你XD

虽然你大过我们、但聊起天来我们还是没代沟的

还是跟我们玩的像小孩子一样

你啊、吃不大的小孩=P

不要每天做emo queen、有什么想找人倾诉我们nani group一直都在=)

Corne,

不知道几时和你开始熟起来

只记得是因为扯铃

一开始因为某某因素对你有些偏见

哈哈、但过后真正认识你和你好起来后原来也是个叽喳婆-.-

和你相处很开心、因为你够搞笑、够开朗（尤其玩杀手时XD)

知道你很爱你的他、可是不要每次无端端emo不说话

因为你不笑的样子很恐怖=P

矮矮，

还记得第一次和你说话是通过乃捷

那时跟你不熟、所以没什么和你说话

自从扯铃的event后跟你才熟了起来

才知道原来你那么矮XD

和你做朋友真的很开心、因为我们都有共同点

够38 XD

minglu，

高脚妹！还记得我第一次见你是在新村晚会的booth

一开始看你好像很串酱、觉得这个人一定不容易相处

可是真正认识你时才知道这并不是我想的那样

原来你也跟我一样38+神经

不要再继续长高了啦、不然我们跟你说话很辛苦啊XD

乃捷，

这次总写对你的名了吧？XD

你啊是这nani group里面搞笑的角色

我们每次都拿你来开玩笑

可是你一点也不生气、不放在心上

这点是我唯一欣赏你的地方XD

你对朋友也蛮steady的、只是衰在你............XDDD

没有啦、开玩笑的=P

贝贝，

扯铃高手=D

不认识你觉得你很文静、很斯文

但是原来你也很喜欢踩人的、尤其是corneXD

有时候你说的话真的很搞笑

有时好真的想象不到那些话是从你口中说出来的

haha=DD

Ben,

Since u are a banana, i specially wrote english version for u laaa. hehe

when talk about how do i know u

i always remember last time in club happen that thing

erhemmm...........this i dun want to talk lorrrr. u know i know lo =P

Anyway, we are always welcome you if u willing to join us

once you join as our member, u r always our member no matter how. ok?

dun think too muchh=))

最后，谢谢你们在我二十一岁生日时留下脚印
谢谢你为我筹备的生日啦=P

大家考试加油

gambatehhh

nani group 万岁！！

wushhhhhhh!!

如果我不在乎你 我不會為你笑；

不會變得這麼脆弱；

不會在意你做的每件事

 不會靜靜的想著你髮獃；

不會記住你說的每句話

 不會為你心痛；

不會珍惜與你在一起的時候；

不會總是不由自主的想起你；

不會這麼輕易地讓痛苦摺磨自己；

不會為了一些小事跟你爭執...

這一切隻因為我在乎你。

可不可以趁我还在乎你时

珍惜我

坚强！

總不能流血就喊痛

怕黑就開燈

想念就聯繫

疲憊就放空

被孤立就討好

脆弱就想家

不要被現在而蒙蔽雙眼

終究是要長大 

最漆黑的那段路 終要自己走完


現在的這些那些


也將會被時間拋在腦後 所以不要害怕

L.I.F.E

It such a long time i dint update my blog since the last update is blog about my sem break

Okay. now talking about my studies

Time flies fast

It is week 8 now

Assignment, midterm, presentation all came together at this few week

Seriously, i have no confidence in all subject this semester especially MRIP 

Assignment cant manage to do well

The worst thing is assignment marks for this subject is 32% of the final marks

Midterm not able to answered well also

how i gonna survive for this subject? should i drop?

NOO. no give up for you.

No excuse for you to give up

Anyway, i will try my best to do it better.

No matter how many marks we get 

I hope we will be motivated to do it well together

At least we TRY. we try to put effort on it.

Hope this semester will be end faster

Feel so stress about the assignment =(

if have option, i rather choose midterm but not assignment.

Ok. Stop talking about those stress things.

Now talk about my love one.

I would like to thanks my dear being with me for half year with the smile and love u gave to me

Although we are argue quiet often recently

but at least we have learn something throughout the problem

Honestly, i hate people lie to me seriously

Sometimes i know you are lying to me

But i just pretending i don't know

and try to not keep in mind 

i don't know why, what ur purpose to lying me

but however i wont mention infront of you

It doesn't help anything if i mention

so i choose not to say

i will get touch and happy by very little thing u did for me

but i also will easy to get influence by the bad things 

All im just keeping in my heart

But everyone got their weakness right?

 no matter who you are, once is you then forever is you

My fatty=)

Hope our love will be last forever and ever.

I Love You =)

  

Now is the turn of friendship

It has a period of time we are getting far to each other 

i miss that feeling of we are 38 togehter sometimes

Im happy that we are back to our track finally

Don't know why, u all are the one who most understand me

and know my pattern clearly. hehe

i like the feeling of we sit together and share our problem

and laugh together

I wont forget how crazy we are

and what memory u all gave to me

i appreciate our friendship =)

Love u all ❤

SEM BREAK

Since im in holiday, of cause i wont waste my holiday by just staying at home

so after exam, i follow my dear went back to his hometown johor

this is the second time i follow him back

still, got abit shy when talked to his parent

but then his parent was very lovely and nice

feel lucky to be part of his family ❤

staying there for few days, i had fat 1kg more

cant imagine if i stay there for 1 month what will happen

LOL =.=

after staying there for few day

we had leave and travel with nani group at MELAKA & KL 

it was amazing and happy trip

because finally i able go to the place that i plan to go long time ago

but i have fall sick during the trip

it's really suffer when fall sick especially having trip

no appetite to eat

no mood to play

but nvm, as long as i have enjoy on it=)

千层蛋糕

next trip of coz hang out with my dear sista laaaa

afternoon i went to KL by ETS alone to meet my sista

then we went time square shopping

just go 1 week before , 1 week after go again

still i can buy a lot =.=

after shopping, we went back to pd to find pork fifi yamcha XD

next day, actually we have plan went to melaka

but due to lack of time

we have changed the plan from melaka to seremban sing K

during the time,we had think back a lot of memories and some funny thing that we did during secondary school

how i wish i can go back to that time=((

last time we always hang out tgt 

but now we have our own thing to do at different area

not like before can meet everyday=((

keep in touch ya babe girls=))

lastly, talk about my result
although it is pass all
but actually it is not meet my expectation
got abit disappointed when i have know my result
mayb i put too high expectation =((
never mind, add oil again next sem to reach my target
i swear i will put more and more effort (every semester i also repeat the same thing but end up with the shit result) ><
but really its time to serious
year 2 subject is not that easy to score =(
Anyway,gambateh to myself and all my friends
=)