突来的情绪

1/10/2014
这天是我开始实习的第一天
也是我开始要独立的第一天
我很清楚知道自己再也不能那么依赖家人了
衣服该自己去洗，去晾干，收衣，折衣等等
偶尔会想念家人，不过总不能想念就回家
有时会突然觉得寂寞
不过这些只是一时的情绪

9/10/2014
这天是很重要的日子
因为这是公布成绩的日子
虽然说我觉得自己考试回答的不错
可是我就是没信心，这就是我的缺点=(
看了成绩，心里有激动了一下
四年以来拿的最好的一次成绩
这证明我努力都没白费的
恩，我顺利毕业了
可是我有点小失望，就差那么一点
离我的目标只差一点
为什么=(
可是算了，朋友告诉我要知足
知足的人才会快乐=D

16/10/2014
今天依然像以往一样早上醒来准备上班
有时会怀念读书的时间
想skip就skip class的生活
工作不能，那是一种责任
不能辛苦就喊停
我得习惯，以后还有好长好长的日子要熬呢

有时会觉得很无助，很没方向感
不了解自己想要的是什么
不清楚自己真正要的是什么东西
有时会突然Emo了起来
给我选择，我想我永远都不要长大

7.9.2014

你再不出现

我就要慢慢习惯没有你了。

Black Tuesday

昨天发生了一件很糟糕的事
让我心情大受影响、也哭了好几遍
不过经过这件事也让我成长了不少
让我看透很多人情世面原来是多么的恐怖可怕
原来一直都被保护在笼里的我以为这世界其实很简单
讨厌一个人可以直接写在脸上、原来这办法行不通的
我学会了做什么事都要学会先三思而后行
因为这世界上有各种的人戴着各种面具武器
不知道什么时候会在背后刺你一刀
有些东西虽然我们既然去避免问题滋生
可是却无能为力
因为这都不是在我们能力范围能做的东西
昨天我才深深感受到其实我不应该把那些不重要的人影响我的心情
甚至然后费力气去说他们
所以我决定道歉、认输
退出这场战争
不再和你们有任何瓜葛、也不会浪费力气去理你们
我还有很多人值得我去珍惜，我去爱
时间都不够了、我才没空去理你们

谢谢那些在我无助的时候给我安慰的人
关心我、鼓励我的人
谢谢你们。

最后谢谢我的家人们一样支持我
还怕我心情会大受他们影响而不开心
带我去吃大餐
谢谢你们。

A Special Memory between us

8/7/2014
Baby took few day leave drove from Johor to Kampar just to find me
and bring me travel to penang 2 days.
The stupid baby knew i am lazy to planning so he have no choice
he was forced to planning of all 2 days trip =P
and so far so good, it is a very satisfied trip. =D
we have lots of joyful and happy moment, it had create a great memory to us.

He knew i like to shopping so he bring me to went for shopping first at the first stop when reach penang
And the unexpected things happened......(i dint bought anything on that day) HAHAHA LOL i cant believe myself why am i so good girl. HEHE
After shopping for few hours baby took me to this place.

We cycle tgt to find the 壁画

Thanks for leading me this 'lu ci' and worrying of me every single time when i am cycle.
i know u scare i will get lost and you keep look back to make sure im there. caring baby<3 hehe="" p="">After cycle for few hours and after we are almost found every single of 壁画
then we just left the place and went for dinner.

This is one of the famous stall that baby had found out, but i forgot the name. LOL
Even though it looks not really nice, but believe me, it is very delicious and worth to have a try.
After din din baby went to buy "cha kuew teow"
the expensive 'cha kuew teow" i had ate cost RM12 ! i was like O.O
And obviously we are get cheated. =.=

After dinner we checked in to the hotel
He said he planned to bring me to penang second rated hotel "Flamingo Hotel"
yea, it is really worth for the money.
very nice view from the hotel
thanks baby dear <3 p="">

9/7/2014
The next day we having breakfast together at hotel

After breakfast we have a walk at the beach.

the next destination will be toy museum 

actually our plan was went to escape part but too bad they are not allow me to go in because i dint wear sport shoes.

then we went to toy museum.  alots of fun at there too. remind me a lots of kid memory <3 p="">

After have fun at toy museum we went for lunch

Yummy lunch. satisfied.

Alright, it comes to the end

Mission complete.

Once again, thank you baby dear of ur caring

thank you ur love

thank you for willing to spend money just to make me happy

thank you for everything.

ILY <3 p="">

=(

Well, i dun know how to explain how i am feeling now

just simply want to shout out my feeling here

stress, problem, '小人’, trouble all come together at the same time

alright, i admit to saying that this month really such a unlucky month that bring lots trouble for me

i know i shouldn't always complaint this complaint that

maybe all of this things is a challenge given by god to make me grow up

but then i really feeling sad and suffer in my heart and no body would know

i used to be smiling always infront of people

but who else know me?



Sometimes i just need a shoulder.....

I.I.T.E.O.O.S

I heard the sound, and yes, u are shouting my name
I opened the door
I doesn't said even a word and went to upstairs
You are in downstairs
Vaguely, I heard some sound
I though u .......
After that it does not happen exactly what do I wish to
I felt stupid to thinking all this kind of things.

不开心=(

来说说我最近不开心的事吧

上星期考试、我以为我可以做得很好

但往往事与愿违

这个考试又被我搞砸了

是我不够努力吗？还是不管我怎么努力都一样？

真的很恨自己、比别人笨的自己

别人踏一步，我却要走好几步才追的上


我很努力的想做的更好、可是嘴上说说实际上却没有

我就是这个老样子

一点点就让我想很多很多、然后让自己不安心才甘愿

学业也好、爱情也好

我老是这样！

几时才能改我这个老毛病啊

连续失眠了几天

睡觉时脑子一直在转、一直想一些有的没的

压力开始冲着我来了

第二件不开心的事是---碰巧二哥结婚撞到我的考试

心情很复杂、很讨厌=((

第一次家里办喜事而我要忙着考试

真的很不开心！！！=((

唉！老天就是那么残忍

为什么？！=(

不过没关系、人都是这样熬出来的

把玩乐的时间减半能换来理想的成绩的话

我愿意

告诉自己熬过就好了、辛苦点没关系

我要坚强

我不会让任何人瞧不起、我要我家人为我而骄傲

为了将来~~~~

拼了吧><