沉默

不被理解是痛苦的

被误会心里是难受的

当下的我说真的很想爆发

到最后我还是压抑了自己

我选择了沉默回应这一切无理的责怪

有时候沉默也是个很好的回应

把那想反驳的话收回进去

因为就算说了结果说不定更糟

不是什么大事，只是会不开心一下子

只是会对你的不理解大吃一惊

然后失望不开心

所以沉默

然后就这样.....

我好吗？

时光似剑，不知不觉2014就要过去了
在KL三个月的实习生活也将要告一段落了
值得开心的是我终于大学毕业了
还有三天工作日就要和这里的同事，朋友们告别了
其实说真的很不舍得
我算是幸运了吧，老天应该对我很好了
实习的期间都很享受，同事们都很好
看着朋友们每天埋怨着工作的压力
顿时我觉得我真的很幸运，谢谢老天一直以来那么眷顾着我
在我在外面无依无靠的时候身边有几个像似哥哥那样的朋友照顾着我
谢谢你们这一直以来的照顾我这个笨手笨脚的小妹
谢谢你们有时公主般的对待
在外面吃饭时夹菜给我
shopping时帮我拿东西
煮东西给我们吃
特别感谢那位
每次都会请我吃好吃的甜品
要去哪里时成为我的司机没任何怨言
当然在工作上面有点小争执，我知道是我的公主病
对不起
2014 年我过的好吗？
不能说不好，那感觉我是那种不知足的人
也不能说好，那也其实不是很好
总而言之刚刚好
有起有落，有开心有不开心
挫折让我成长，跌倒让我坚强
我要一直维持着这个信念
有时觉得我想要简简单单就好
有个温暖的家庭，有个疼爱珍惜我的男人，有份我喜欢的工作
有个稳定收入让父母生活好过些，
这样就够了

CHANGE?

Time flies, i had been intern here for almost 2 months

What did i learned in this 2 months?

Independent in terms of financial independent

Be strong whenever there are plenty of problems confronted

There is always one question have to ask myself and have no certain answer for it 

'WHAT DID I WANT?'

Ya, the most tough question ever

I'm losing the direction, i'm confusing about myself

i'm changed, yes i'm changed throughout this 2 months

Why can i do that?

it already over my underline

I'm confusing what makes me change now.

突来的情绪

1/10/2014
这天是我开始实习的第一天
也是我开始要独立的第一天
我很清楚知道自己再也不能那么依赖家人了
衣服该自己去洗，去晾干，收衣，折衣等等
偶尔会想念家人，不过总不能想念就回家
有时会突然觉得寂寞
不过这些只是一时的情绪

9/10/2014
这天是很重要的日子
因为这是公布成绩的日子
虽然说我觉得自己考试回答的不错
可是我就是没信心，这就是我的缺点=(
看了成绩，心里有激动了一下
四年以来拿的最好的一次成绩
这证明我努力都没白费的
恩，我顺利毕业了
可是我有点小失望，就差那么一点
离我的目标只差一点
为什么=(
可是算了，朋友告诉我要知足
知足的人才会快乐=D

16/10/2014
今天依然像以往一样早上醒来准备上班
有时会怀念读书的时间
想skip就skip class的生活
工作不能，那是一种责任
不能辛苦就喊停
我得习惯，以后还有好长好长的日子要熬呢

有时会觉得很无助，很没方向感
不了解自己想要的是什么
不清楚自己真正要的是什么东西
有时会突然Emo了起来
给我选择，我想我永远都不要长大

7.9.2014

你再不出现

我就要慢慢习惯没有你了。

Black Tuesday

昨天发生了一件很糟糕的事
让我心情大受影响、也哭了好几遍
不过经过这件事也让我成长了不少
让我看透很多人情世面原来是多么的恐怖可怕
原来一直都被保护在笼里的我以为这世界其实很简单
讨厌一个人可以直接写在脸上、原来这办法行不通的
我学会了做什么事都要学会先三思而后行
因为这世界上有各种的人戴着各种面具武器
不知道什么时候会在背后刺你一刀
有些东西虽然我们既然去避免问题滋生
可是却无能为力
因为这都不是在我们能力范围能做的东西
昨天我才深深感受到其实我不应该把那些不重要的人影响我的心情
甚至然后费力气去说他们
所以我决定道歉、认输
退出这场战争
不再和你们有任何瓜葛、也不会浪费力气去理你们
我还有很多人值得我去珍惜，我去爱
时间都不够了、我才没空去理你们

谢谢那些在我无助的时候给我安慰的人
关心我、鼓励我的人
谢谢你们。

最后谢谢我的家人们一样支持我
还怕我心情会大受他们影响而不开心
带我去吃大餐
谢谢你们。

A Special Memory between us

8/7/2014
Baby took few day leave drove from Johor to Kampar just to find me
and bring me travel to penang 2 days.
The stupid baby knew i am lazy to planning so he have no choice
he was forced to planning of all 2 days trip =P
and so far so good, it is a very satisfied trip. =D
we have lots of joyful and happy moment, it had create a great memory to us.

He knew i like to shopping so he bring me to went for shopping first at the first stop when reach penang
And the unexpected things happened......(i dint bought anything on that day) HAHAHA LOL i cant believe myself why am i so good girl. HEHE
After shopping for few hours baby took me to this place.

We cycle tgt to find the 壁画

Thanks for leading me this 'lu ci' and worrying of me every single time when i am cycle.
i know u scare i will get lost and you keep look back to make sure im there. caring baby<3 hehe="" p="">After cycle for few hours and after we are almost found every single of 壁画
then we just left the place and went for dinner.

This is one of the famous stall that baby had found out, but i forgot the name. LOL
Even though it looks not really nice, but believe me, it is very delicious and worth to have a try.
After din din baby went to buy "cha kuew teow"
the expensive 'cha kuew teow" i had ate cost RM12 ! i was like O.O
And obviously we are get cheated. =.=

After dinner we checked in to the hotel
He said he planned to bring me to penang second rated hotel "Flamingo Hotel"
yea, it is really worth for the money.
very nice view from the hotel
thanks baby dear <3 p="">

9/7/2014
The next day we having breakfast together at hotel

After breakfast we have a walk at the beach.

the next destination will be toy museum 

actually our plan was went to escape part but too bad they are not allow me to go in because i dint wear sport shoes.

then we went to toy museum.  alots of fun at there too. remind me a lots of kid memory <3 p="">

After have fun at toy museum we went for lunch

Yummy lunch. satisfied.

Alright, it comes to the end

Mission complete.

Once again, thank you baby dear of ur caring

thank you ur love

thank you for willing to spend money just to make me happy

thank you for everything.

ILY <3 p="">